“My journey into 2011 and what it means for me…
Let me back track a little bit first…the last 6+ months for me have been very difficult and have taken me to some dark and depressing places within myself. I won’t go into detail, mostly because I don’t want to when I am feeling so great now and also because you don’t need to know all the details to understand. Okay so on with the show, in December I made the VERY conscious decision that I needed to move into 2011 with a clean slate, optimistic attitude and having closed a couple chapters whilst cleaning up some loose ends. In order for me to do this it meant first reflecting on everything that had happened in 2010 and trying to make sense of it all (hind sight is 20/20 after all).
To be honest it was a close call as 2011 approached, because just when I thought “I get it!” my body told me different. A few days before New Year’s Eve I woke up feeling terrible, nausea, exhaustion, achy…just downright terrible, I thought at first I was getting the flu. The next thing that happened proved it was not quite the flu but rather a purge. On December 30th I started to feel better and then that evening out of nowhere I got REALLY angry and emotional, I couldn’t control what I was saying or the emotions I was feeling, so I just went with it. That night hubby and I went to bed (he bearing witness and participating in the earlier events of the evening) neither of us upset, angry or emotional instead both of us were happy and so optimistic about the new year to come. This is when I realized I had not been ill the last few days, but rather my body stopped me in its tracks to get rest so that my mind could do its final purge.
As I eluded to earlier all of this journey was so that I could move into 2011, not just the start of a new year, but also the start of a new decade and what I feel is the start of a new chapter in my life with a clean slate. I can say now with the highest of confidence and the deepest of knowing that I truly have been able to do it. We are only a week into January and AMAZING things have already started to happen and not just that, but I am very aware that many more amazing things are in store for me this year, decade and chapter.
In saying that though I remind myself and caution those who read this and have gone through similar journeys and who are feeling as optimistic, that it does not mean we will not be hit or stricken with unfortunate events, it just means we are better able and equipped to cope with them when they do happen.
So what do I think 2011 specifically has in store for me? LOTS! In fact I also have a very strong feeling 2011 for me is not just about 2011, but that 2011 is also going to garnish me with hints of some of the other amazing things to come in my future as I continue to transform and journey down my path. What did 2010 teach me the most? I am so much stronger than I thought I was and that it is so important to surround yourself with amazing people and a great support network.
My wish for all of you reading this is an open, enlightened and successful new year and chapter in your lives.